Embarrassment! I'm not drunk anymore, but I think I got alcohol poisoning. I drank more last night than I ever have before. Here's the rundown for beer: I think that is all the beer, but really I stopped counting. It may not have been that much really, because I don't think I finished the last beer. Here are the shots. Are you fucking ready for this? I had one of each: Six shots? Plus how many beers? Let's just put it this way. I feel completely embarrassed and ashamed. I'm too old to get so drunk. I learned my lesson long ago about alcohol. Don't drink so much that it ruins your fun time. Last night, it not only ruined my time, but I fell asleep on the toilet. After I was gone awhile people started to worry, so two girls came and helped me off the toilet and held my hair when I puked in the sink. I didn't clean out the sink either, which means someone else had to, and that is also very shameful. They kept reassuring me that it has happened to them so many times, this is nothing, don't worry about it, but god I felt lame. And then of course I had to go back outside to the rest of our group, and I really didn't want everyone to see me completely shitfaced. It is not like me not to be in control. Fuck fuck fuck. I walked out, and smiled and felt better for the 5 seconds I saw everyone, so that was good. The air did me well. Then I was whisked off to someone's car and was driven home to my husband. I wanted him so bad. When I was in the bathroom I just wanted to be instantly transported into his arms in our home, because there I would feel loved. He took care of me when I got home. He should be so angry at me, but he always treats me with the greatest love. The children are distracted, so I'd better rest so I will have the energy to make lunch. I even threw up this morning. It was the water I had drunk. I slept some more, though, and then drank a little bit of water and ate a little bit of orange. It was so good, and I wanted more, but I was afraid I would throw up again. So far so good. And I do feel much better now. I think I just need to get a lot of sleep. That is the most important thing. |